Giving without Receiving

What do you do when you give someone a gift and they receive it unenthusiastically?
Do you think you chose a bad gift?
Give the person the benefit of the doubt?
Maybe she’s had a long day, she’s tired, she’s probably thinking about more important things.
Even when I put so much effort into it?
Why is there such a struggle to give and not expect anything in return?
Just some enthusiasm?
I don’t ask for promises of undying love.
I too cannot promise undying love.
Still is it too much to ask?
Damn tug of war.

Post #90

The deeper something is lodge in your flesh the more painful it is to forcefully remove it. Even harder when its going in deeper as you are trying to remove it, reluctantly.

Is it better to love and lose?

“‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
- Alfred, Lord Tennyson

Maybe. I cannot decide yet. Although I am starting to.

I’m still not over my Korean craze, I am still watching K-dramas. The thing with Korean shows is that half the time they have sad endings. I used to be very dissatisfied with sad endings, yet of late I have begun to accept them, even satisfied.

Why? Crazy ah Liang? Because a sad ending is still an ending, it is still a resolution. Cliche as it is, death by cancer is a huge theme in K-drama, and it is realistic, because people around me have suffered from cancer.

Anyway isn’t it better that the characters in the show have loved and lost than to not love at all? Can’t we be happy knowing that such things happen?

I can be happy knowing that someone has gone through that, but I still cannot detach myself from that, I cannot let go. Ramble ramble ramble..

“For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are those ‘It might have been.’”
- John Greenleaf Whittier

It’s Okay

“And it’s okay
If you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephones
Well, they’re working in both ways
But if I never, ever hear them ring
If nothing else
I’ll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
And that’s okay
Cause I’ll remember everything you say” – You and I both by Jason Mraz

It’s Okay

“And it’s okay
If you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephones
Well, they’re working in both ways
But if I never, ever hear them ring
If nothing else
I’ll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
And that’s okay
Cause I’ll remember everything you say” – You and I both by Jason Mraz

I Miss Mummy

I dreamt of my mum, it was very real leh. I wanna go home fast!

I don’t really remember much of the dream, so I thought, “better blog before you forget that you dreamt of your mum”.

Haha, I do believe it was a mundane dream, but it is the mundane that happens all the time and that which I miss so much, like buying char beehoon for breakfast and having teh my mum makes. It’s just different from the one I make here.

Paper Boats

If I could fold a paper boat
Place all my feelings in it
And send it away
I would

—

I only just learnt how to fold paper boats, I had always wondered how to fold the boats when I was in primary school. I’d see my peers fold them but I never did ask them how to do it.

为什么？

为什么有爱情？

为什么？

李圣杰－痴心绝对

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

Little Serendips

I read Joey’s blog and in it he had this quote, it went like this,

“‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.” – Emily Dickinson

I had read his blog in the morning.

Coming home from school, I felt like watching Il Mare, a Korean movie starring my favourite K-actress Jun Ji Hyun! And the quote was in the show!

In any case Il Mare is what the Hollywood film, Lakehouse, was based on.

And just a few moments ago, I felt like watching 李聖傑’s mtvs and I Youtube-d it and lo! I clicked on this video, annnddddd there were clips of Lakehouse in it!

Totally no link, but end up got some link!