Archive for January, 2008

Deteriorate

31.01.08

Demon Hunter – Deteriorate (Fan Video)

This is my heart song Lord.

Time has had its way with me
My broken, tired hands can’t build a thing
The wires that have held me still
Embedded now in flesh, define my will
The idle of my days has won
The empty I have fed has made me numb
Despite what you will find in me
The failures of my past still swell beneath

(Pre-chorus:)
I need a heart that carries on through the pain
When the walls start collapsing again
Give me a soul that never ceases to follow
Despite the infection within

(Chorus:)
Our careless feet leaving trails
Never minding the fragile dirt that we all end in

This is where I find my fall
The cares that held me life don’t work at all
And every step away from here
Is closer to the plague I hold so dear

Awaiting my end
Breathing in the day that finds me new
Redemption begins
Bleeding out the flaws in place of you

- Deteriorate by Demon Hunter

Haircut

30.01.08

Just got my haircut. Note to self, my fringe curls so don’t cut it too short. I look like a Beatle now. Hehe.

Haircut

Post #94

30.01.08

An afterthought(s) on Post #93:

The thoughts that were going through my head when I saw that situation was, “Why does Ah-mah at 60-years-old have to work till this unearthly hour?”

Kevin and I were on our way back home most probably from hanging out with friends or partying (on a Tuesday night?!). The point is we were having fun and Ah-mah was probably working because she has to support herself.

Ah-mah’s old already, cannot even get onto the sidewalk properly. Ah-mah’s children, what are you doing?

This reminds me of something Jack (a very dear brother) told me. I was asking him if he was going to Switchfoot’s gig. He said no. I asked him if he wasn’t a big fan. He said yes but he couldn’t pay $90 for his own leisure while people elsewhere are suffering. Although I didn’t really understand what he meant, I am starting to see what he means..

I shared Ah-mah’s story with Joey and he encouraged me saying that I will do better next time, and I can only hope so! Let me not forget that it is by God’s grace that we are enabled to do good deeds and it is because of his grace that we must do good deeds, not for our own glory but for his glory, not by our own strength but by his grace.

But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace toward me was not in vain. On the contrary, I worked harder than any of them, though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me. – 1 Corinthians 15:10

Post #93

30.01.08

I was on the bus on the way home. I was passing the Tanglin Mall bus stop at about 12 midnight and I saw this old lady. I think she looked like she was about 55 or 60 years old. She wore this blue clothes which I assume is a uniform of some sorts. Let’s call her “Ah-mah” because she could be someone’s granny.

Ah-mah had just gotten off 106, probably changing the bus to some other destination. The residences in Tanglin are for the rich and famous. Ah-mah doesn’t have that luxury, she had to work till 11pm and had to take the bus home, alone.

Right this moment, I see Ah-mah with one leg up on the kerb and one leg down on the road. Her hand was on her right knee, (the leg on the kerb) as if she was resting for a while because it took too much effort for her to get off the street onto the sidewalk.

A boy with earphones plugged into his ears, who must be not much older than 20 was sitting, waiting for his bus. Let’s call him “Kevin”.

Ah-mah tries once to heave herself onto the sidewalk, but she doesn’t manage, so she continues to rest on her right leg. Kevin is watching. From where I was in the bus, he looked somewhat baffled. Ah-mah tried again and she doesn’t make it again. She tries a third time, by this time my bus was moving off, in the corner of my eye Ah-mah looked like she managed to get up onto the sidewalk. I hope she didn’t fall or get hurt or anything.

As the bus drove off, I saw a Maserati at the junction waiting for the lights to turn. Is there a link to this story I am trying to tell? You decide.

Now, I’m not saying I did the right thing, because I was selfish and tired and so I refused to get off the bus to help. Kevin could have helped but he did not.

We are placed each day in different situations, at different times and places. Look around you, a need can be filled by you. Someone can be blessed because of your little act of kindness.

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. – Matthew 5:14-16

Post #92

29.01.08

- Thought of a very busy friend
- Sang
- Slept at 10 plus
- Jeremy called at 12 plus
- Woke at 3 plus

I sang myself to sleep last night
I sang a hymn and a song
The Lord, my unfailing love

Post #91

28.01.08

I gave my all
My time, strength, heart, money
Giving it to the wrong place perhaps
I cannot be selfless, I wish I could
It is more blessed to give than receive?
Glad that’s true

Post #90

23.01.08

The deeper something is lodge in your flesh the more painful it is to forcefully remove it. Even harder when its going in deeper as you are trying to remove it, reluctantly.

Funny

17.01.08

Pantat Again

Just when I want to blog about something serious. Pantat strikes again!

Pantat means backside

09.01.08

I think there are no Malay-speaking people in Giordano’s communications department.. Hurhur.

Pantat

edit:
I’ve been getting many questions about what the joke is about. Pantat means buttocks in Malay. Don’t believe me? See, http://dictionary.bhanot.net/

Here’s the definition given there:
pantat
posterior or bottom; external genitalia

Cheers .)